"I've always thought of myself as a fairly loyal person."
WT wants loyal sheeples like you. But they are not a loyal organization. Imagine if WT were a person and being investigated by a judicial committee...
WT: "So then I put my hands up her top and grabbed a feel."
JC: "As you were doing this unclean fondling, did you think about how Jehovah would feel about this?"
WT: "You misunderstand, I've never improperly touched anyone. I wasn't fondling the woman at all when I stole her purse. I've never even met her."
JC: "Wait, you didn't fondle her, but you stole her property?"
WT: "That never happened, please try to keep up with what I'm explaining to you. I didn't steal anything from her, I just took some pictures while she was taking a shower."
JC: "What the? ... Are any of these stories going to stick for more than 10 seconds?"
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dog1: "For the moment, anyway. Doesn't help that I conduct the Wt study and am pretty involved. Not self-pitying, really, but just trying to work it out."
Ugh. I had to conduct a few times after learning TTATT. I had no idea how I was going to exit, but a way appeared and I headed for the exit. As far as conducting the WT, just make it as boring as the JWs expect it to be with a few truthz thrown in for anyone paying attention. Don't bother to try to really understand anything in the WT, it can all be changed again very, very soon anyway. So, rather than understanding the "present truth", realize that their truth only has a shelf life of a couple of months. Here's some pointers on how to conduct...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KeidZmxHLiY